guess im due for an update...

i don't have much to say.. today and yesterday so far have been pretty interesting..

yeah i know its like 7am but hey i work midnights and stuff when normal people are sleeping happens to me.  i think they fired one of my good friends i worked with last night though.. he hit a poll at full speed and messed up his forklift pretty bad it kinda sucked..i mean it was good for me.. because i got to take over what he was doing and made a lot more money than i should of. but yeah.. i hope they don't fire him.. he's the guy i compete with and shit makes us fast. -- if you knew what i was talking about you'd understand but yeah

this morning was interesting too.. black ice fucking sucks especially when your entire road is covered in it.  like i was doing no more than 20 miles an huor down my road.. and went to brake and slid past my driveway and over the tracks which theres a good 200 feet between my driveway and the tracks so thats about how far i slid i only stopped slidding cause i let off the brake to try and turn around..which that didn't happen either til like a mile down the road lol.  once i got turned around and knew how icy the roads where..i purposly slid my car into my driveway sideways..it was pretty interesting lol.

but otherwise this post was pretty much pointless nobodys gonna read it cause i don't ever post and probably lost most of the people who usually read it in the first place..

and hey you.. i know i got mad last night.. and im sorry.. i just hate getting played around.. and i feel like thats what your doing to me.

it's been a while

what can i say..i don't update anymore.. my life sucks and its boring :-p

i work.. and sleep.. thats the extent of it.

im 19 years old living the life of a 40 year old.

i need a change..

weither it be with location.. love status, my job, if i goto school or not, something.. i need a change

um no.

seriously..what the hell is going on.

you want me to do what?

Well.. where should i fucking start

Ok So. these past few months have been hell.. and a half mind you.  i found something out that i really didn't want to know, because i knew it would effect me completely if i found out.. Well guess what..i found out. It wasn't the perfect situation if you know what i mean.  But if you love something so much, you really don't care what it's problems are, or what the flaws are.  This was a big flaw, and border line.. me about washing my hands of this. I'm expected to stay in this, begging is my weakpoint.

Word of advice, don't take for granted something or someone that is great to you.. never hurt you, and if they did.. they fixed it as soon as they could.  one day they will be gone, trust me... its just a matter of time before they say fuck it.. im gone.. i waited for you too long. but maybe thats all it takes? just for one shock like that. for them to realize.. hey i really miss them.. maybe i messed up.. and you might be lucky...and that person will take you back.. or they might say.. babe, i gave you too many chances.. now leave..

I'm going to be an uncle, believe it or not.  Thank god its not mine right.  i told my brother straight up.. better you than me.  ok.. i have to live with the kid .. this could be hell.. lord knows what kinda demon child my brothers gonna make.

Starting to get more and more into my old habits, maybe  its better off this way? Me and donnie been hangin out alot more on the weekends. I think its good.. cause i need to get out... get away from work, get my mind off of shit.

I hardly work any weekends anymore.. so gimme a call. ill be around.

don't leave me because of them, stay with me because of you

i Find it funny

in the past six months my life has changed so much, from who i hang out with, who i go outta my way for, what i do, where i work, what i drive.  Some things are happening to fast, so i really never took the time to slow down and update this thing anymore.

For those of you who haven't heard from me in about two weeks, i've been working overtime and stuff.. so when im not working i'm usually sleeping.  For those of you who i haven't heard from and i've tried to get ahold of.. goto hell.. no just kidding..

my work schedule is

sun - 11p-7a  mon - 7p-7a tues 7p-7a wed 7p-7a  thurs 7p-7a  fri 2p-11p

im usually available anytime that im not working though.. unless im sleeping.. then you have to try.. because i can't hear anything.

i decided to post mainly because for like the past week, i've been having weird dreams about my old friends, the ones that i used to hang out with all the time.  and its just weird.. i uno

ill update again when something exciting happens.. this week nothing was.. because i worked all weekend...

have nice day